i dun understand.....

What is the meaning of yearning someone special that you truly love in your life but yet it seems unreachable by your hands...
you tried so hard to fight back all the emotions and feeling that just came rushing into you. Emotions that leaving you hanging between the fine line or fantasy and reality. Feelings that make you go crazy and keeps on thinking that someone. You know its pointless to continue to live in such condition and you realise you just need to move on. you then created a barrier to such foul thing but yet everytime its well fortified...that person's mere appearance, voice or even smile just send you hard built barrier rumbling down. Your heart skip a beat, seconds seems to tick slower, and at that very moment you want that whole situation of you being with that person last....and never ends......but yet it always never turns out the way you want it....
Now that reality hits you, and it hits you well damn hard..... a strike that tells you that ''god damn it! time to wake up!!!''....you know there is no hope....not even miracle is there to help you...all you know right then is that

"why the only person that can make you laugh is the person who made you cried...."

this i dun understand why?...........