ol' william is back

Its rather suprising how reality has hit me. some how an experience that i would not forget. it hit me hard and fast and that sheer moment really makes me see things that was directly infront of me but not seeing it.
i have been a dumb fool in laying my hopes and dreams in a person for like 3 months and now i have come to realise that i am just a mere tool and an object to play with when that person is bored. i have been played and kicked around like a ball. am ordered to do this and do that like a slave. maybe its because that person knows that i love that person and took it for granted.
nevertheless i have open my eyes already and also because of that person the old me has come back. my heart is no longer open....in fact it has harden....i am no longer the person that you see giving people welcom hugs and everything. the world has been cruel to me and why must be kind? i have been underestimated and being toyed around and now i had enough of it. for those who know me well you guys know wat happen if people fooled me......my bad side has arise again and i dun intend to let it sleep back yet...........sometimes being evil is so much fun and easy,...it makes a person worry less about other people and being more carefree......william is back and this william is not the good-o-william you see everyday.....